As
I sat on my front porch clinging to every word that came through the phone
receiver, I struggled to contain the flood of emotions that begged to be
released. I felt suspended in time as the painful reality of Bill’s words
soaked deep into my spirit. It was unbelievable but true. The pronounced
physical symptoms that Bill had been experiencing for several months were a
result of something very serious. What began as a small breeze had quickly
turned into a mighty gale. If I understood the implications of his
explanation,
a full-scale storm was about to blow ashore.
At
that moment there were far more questions than answers. Namely, how could a man
who placed so much emphasis on his physical health be so seriously ill? Sure, he
had a slight slur in his speech but he looked fine. Surely there was a mistake
in the diagnosis
Unfortunately,
there was no mistake. Bill had ALS, better known to most as Lou Gehrigs’s
disease.
There
are moments, perhaps seasons, in life in which the rules regarding time and
space seem suspended. In such a moment, the past is more certain than the
future. Like looking into a kaleidoscope, the present and future appear to be
blurred, allowing the past to come into sharp focus adding some perspective to
the moment.
Born
in Cullman, Alabama, in 1949, Bill and his family moved to Sheffield when he was
seven years old. Blessed by two godly parents, Lloyd Trapp worked for the
Sheffield Power Company while Opal taught school at Threadgill Elementary
School. Both parents made sure that their two sons were in church and as a
result, on April 13, 1959, Pastor Roscoe Griffin baptized Bill into the Body of
Christ at the First Baptist Church of Sheffield. His salvation experience became
the solid foundation that allowed him to discover and fulfill his destiny in
life.
A
natural athlete, Bill excelled in leadership and sports at Sheffield High
School. He earned letters in football, baseball and basketball and was the
President of his senior class. Graduating in 1967, Bill enrolled in the
University of Alabama to pursue a degree in engineering. Although he did receive
a degree in industrial engineering, God had other plans for Bill’s life of
service. Through the strong influence of Campus Crusade for Christ, Bill yielded
his life to the gospel ministry and began to make plans for the future.
Something else very significant happened to him during those years at college.
On
a blind date arranged by friends, his eyes were opened when he met the love of
his life and God chosen companion. A gregarious Methodist girl from Mississippi,
Laura captured his heart from the start. The feeling was mutual and they grew in
Christ and in love together. Complimenting each other in so many ways, the
striking couple had every reason to be excited about each other and their future
together. She was the part of him that was missing. In finding her, he was made
whole. On December 15, 1973, at the
Asbury Congregational Methodist Church, in Jackson, Mississippi, they were
joined in marriage. Their union produced three sons: Brady, Brian and Brett.
Their
partnership in ministry resulted in giving leadership to three churches: York
Terrace Baptist Church (1974 to 1979) and Woodmont Baptist Church (1987 to
2000), both in the Shoals Area, and West Parkway Baptist Church in Azle, Texas,
while Bill pursued his theological degree in Fort Worth, Texas.
A
successful husband and father, a respected leader…a prospering church…in the
center of God’s will for his life…in shape physically and spiritually,
Bill’s life was like a very good day at the beach until the day the storm blew
in unannounced.
By
Easter of 1997, Bill began to notice some slight difficulties in pronouncing
certain words, especially those containing the letter s. Thinking the
problem was related to a virus or infection, he consulted a physician who
immediately sent him to ECM hospital for an MRI of his brain. The outcome was
good news…no brain tumor. However, relief quickly turned to horror when a
neurologist suggested that “most likely” the symptoms were a result of ALS,
better known as Lou Gehrigs’s disease. ALS, Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis, is
a rapidly progressive, fatal neuromuscular disease. It attacks motor neurons in
the spinal cord and lower brain where signals are transmitted from the brain to
the voluntary muscles throughout the body. When motor neurons die as a result of
ALS, the ability of the brain to control muscle movement is lost. When muscles
fail to receive messages, they weaken, atrophy, and die. The outcome is always
death in one to four years, usually by respiratory failure.
In
August 1997, a doctor at the Mayo Clinic added his confirmation to Bill’s
situation as “multiple cranial motor neuropathies” most likely caused by ALS.
Immediately
the progressive death of the nerves in the brain affected the tongue and facial
muscles creating difficulty in speaking and in swallowing. Eventually, other
symptoms were manifest such as loss of strength in his hands and arms, muscle
twitching and cramping. In spite of these symptoms, as an active pastor Bill,
continued to preach three times each Sunday, finally relinquishing preaching
responsibilities in April 1999. In April 2000 he resigned as Senior Pastor of
Woodmont Baptist Church accepting the title of Pastor Emeritus. Even after he
lost his ability to communicate and in the face of increasing disability and
weakness, he continued to actively love and serve his congregation. As the nerve
deteriotion progressed it eventually affected other areas resulting in
difficulty in eating and breathing, chronic fatigue as well as continual
deterioration of strength and stamina.
From
the outset the entire Christian community began to earnestly fast and pray,
asking God for a miracle in behalf of “Brother Bill”. Throughout the Shoals
Area cars displayed bumper stickers that simply read: PRAY FOR BROTHER BILL. As
people sought the holy ground required in genuine intercession, many lives were
touched and eternally transformed as waves of mercy flowed from the Throne of
Grace. God’s miraculous working power was never an issue for the multitudes
who prayed. The Scripture is clear that Jesus healed many (Luke
7:21) and His power today is still the same. So, we prayed with all of
our hearts. In spite of our prayers, vigils and fasting, Bill was not to be
included among the many. In a sermon that Bill preached in October 1996,
from Hebrews 11, speaking of those who died not seeing the full fruit of their
faith in their lifetime, he asked a piercing question: “Would you be willing
to endure physical challenges in this life in order to attain a greater
resurrection in the next life, all for His greater glory?” We never
fully understand the mysteries of Divine sovereignty, but following Bill’s
example, we must never fail in our commitment to His greater glory.
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PRAY FOR BROTHER BILL
Psalm
107:3 “…He heals all of my diseases…”. |
Janet
McMullen, friend and member at Woodmont Baptist Church, was faithful in
communicating with Bill on a regular basis via email. She always closed her
positive notes with the encouraging phrase One Day Closer.
Janet shared with me the background behind the phrase: “When I started writing
One
Day Closer we were standing in faith that Bill would be healed. Like
many, I never tolerated any thoughts that he might not, even though that I knew
that God is God and I would accept His plan no matter what. One
Day Closer was the first part of the longer phrase; One day closer
to that GREAT THING God is going to do. The focus was on Bill’s complete
and total healing.” Whatever fate lay hidden behind the mysterious veil of the
future, healing or transition, one thing was obvious…he was One
Day Closer.
The day after Christmas 2000, Bill’s health began
to rapidly decline as his breathing difficulties became more and more
pronounced. His strength waned hour by hour. On December 28th, Bill
motioned to Laura indicating that he wanted his speaking devise. With a look of
expectancy and victory upon his face, almost as if to say, “We are really
close to something special here!”, he keyed in the phrase…One Day
Closer.
On
Sunday, December 31, 2000 at 12:33 PM Bill stepped across a threshold into a spacious
place, one he had only seen by faith, and his One Day
Closer gave way to full reality.
In
the Celebration Service honoring Bill’s life and Lord a theme taken from a
song special to Bill clearly emerged. When It’s All Said And Done
is an appropriate tribute to Bill’s commitment to Jesus Christ as well as a
challenge to those of us dealing with the crucial issues of living.
When it’s all
been said and done
There is just
one thing that matters
Did I do my best
to live for truth
Did I live my
life for You
When it’s all
been said and done
All my treasures
will mean nothing
Only what I’ve
done for love’s Reward
Will stand the
test of time
Lord Your mercy
is so great
That You look
beyond our Weakness
And find purest
gold in miry clay
Making sinners
into saints
I will always
sing Your praise
Here on earth
and ever after
For You’ve
shown me Heaven’s my
True Home
When it’s all
been said and done
You’re my Life
when life is gone
(Jim
Cowan, Copyright 1999 Integrity’s Hosanna Music/ASCAP)
Most
people in the Shoals Area knew Bill as a pastor, preacher or spiritual leader. I
knew him as a close friend. Like David and Jonathan we held one another
accountable to His greater glory and for Truth. While packing up Bill’s
study, I found a book that I had given him in September 1997. In His Grip
is a book of devotions built upon stories from the game of golf. Alone, I sat in
the floor and read the words that I had written inside the front cover. I share
it now because it still reflects the feelings of my heart about our relationship
and Bill’s influence in my life.
For all the laughs we enjoyed on the
links;
For all the good shots we remember and the
bad ones we have forgotten;
For
the birdies and pars, which we know are the key to the game because your
father-in-law said so!
For
all the man to man talks, both serious and fun;
For
the days we played in the rain, fog, cold and heat;
For
all the barbeque we ate afterwards;
For
The Game and its relentless “call of the sirens” for two aspiring golfers;
For
the birdies and pars waiting for us in that “spacious place” of the future;
But
mostly for the companionship, the comradeship…
Truly…it’s
a man thing.
I
am sharper because of you, Friend.
Proverbs
27:17
During
the past three years God has been so faithful in making His precious Word come
alive to those who sought His wisdom and counsel. Isaiah 35 and Psalm 91:13-16
were special gifts to Laura from the Holy Spirit. The strength she experienced
from these verses is immeasurable. It enabled her to find peace and balance
while spinning furiously on the Potter’s Wheel. Personally, the Lord gave me
Psalm 18:16-19 in 1997. Even though I never fully understood the spacious
place part until now, the words were a source of such encouragement.
These verses, in addition to many other prophetic words from the Lord,
imparted wisdom, strength and virtue in the midst of the storm.
However,
there is one verse that I believe still awaits full completion. “I tell you
a truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only
a single seed. But if it dies, it brings forth a harvest” (John
12:25). Even in the midst of
his personal storm, Bill was unwavering in his commitment to His greater
glory. Like the men and women of faith in Hebrews 11, the full harvest
of Bill’s faith did not come in his lifetime but I am convinced that the greater
glory that Bill lived and died to see come to earth…will indeed happen!
Again, Janet McMullen’s comment on the One Day Closer phrase
is pregnant with insight: “The revival we hoped to see when Bill was healed is
still coming, and it may well be that the GREAT THING to which we are closer is
far greater than one man’s earthly healing. It is the healing of hundreds, if
not thousands in this community. Whatever the GREAT THING is for us, it makes me
smile to think that Bill already knows what it is and he is grinning from ear to
ear.”
One
truth is undeniable. One way or the other, revival or transition, each of us is One
Day Closer to His greater glory!